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Dies Party [15 May 2004|07:24pm]
[ mood | tired ]

This week has been hectic. A lot of bad shit has happened, but some good shit as well to even it out a bit. The school week was pretty frustrating and stressful, but I managed to do well on all my tests and stuff, and I actually didn't do most of my homework at night because I was up talking to him like every night. Oh yes by the way, me and mark ARE going out. If you'd like to know the story feel free to IM me-xosxyshortyox, cuz yes, it was pretty cute lol. Track went pretty well. I broke 17 in the hurdles and jumped 14'6 1/2 on wednesday lol. That landed me a third place victory whoo. Track today wasn't so bad either, I just got WICKED burnt. I have a huge soccer game tomorrow. Biggest game of the year, this is pretty defining. If we win, we go to Division 1. If we lose, we don't. If we lose, I quit soccer. And this team hasn't had a goal scored against them yet. <--Definition of pressure. So yeah, that should be fun. Anyway there's this huge party next door. Wedding party. Maybe I'll go join. TTYL

<3 Brittany

Ghost of a good thing

This is what I spent my upsetting night last night doing [04 May 2004|12:55am]
[ mood | depressed ]

*written by me, you take it, you die*

I couldn't sleep last night; the thought of you running through my head.
I closed my eyes, but tears still ran down my cheeks. It hurt so bad.
I wished to hear your voice, if only for a mere second, just to know that you still cared. Your call never came.
I hoped to fall asleep, fall asleep and never wake up. Atleast that way, my last dream would be of you.
And dreams are always so much happier; much better than reality.
I longed to spend forever, eternity, in my little fantasy world.

There's nothing more I want than to make this work.
I just wish you knew how I feel, just how much you mean to me, how much I love you. I would do anything.
I just wish you loved me back, even if you're love in return is only 1/8 of what I feel for you.

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[01 May 2004|09:47pm]
he said the meanest thing tonight
it hurt so bad
and I can't stop crying
it just made me think of all the other reasons I dislike myself
and I have no one to talk to
oh wow

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[30 Apr 2004|11:19pm]
I can't help this feeling I feel whenever I'm with you.
It's amazing, I can't even begin to describe...

Didn't get to go to Yellowcard tonight, but it's okay. Hung out with Mark, Sam and Kajencks. Colleen called me when they played Back Home and left a message for me on my voicemail. :) I love that song, and it's Mark's favorite too, so I let him listen :)
We saw Envy, what a stupid movie. Don't even bother. I should probably be off to bed though. I gotta be up for 7; god damn track. Oh well, nights all love you!

<3 BhO
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[29 Apr 2004|05:54pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Haven't really updated in awhile, so here it is :)
Frustrated that I can't go see YC again tomorrow, even though some girl on the forum is like giving away two tickets! WTF
If I don't do anything tomorrow, I'm going to be so depressed and emo. Just knowing that Yellowcard is playing near me and I'm not there, kills me. Ahhh, not to mention it's SEAN's birthday what the fuck. God damn...
School sucked this week, actually everything sucked. It was a pretty shitty week. Collamati can suck my dick, but I did good on my math test today which is key. Seeing I suck at math. Track sucks, going to soccer practice now. Maybe I'll writes more later. Not sure yet.


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The past few days... [21 Apr 2004|11:56pm]
[ mood | in love =] ]

So the Yellowcard show was amazing...the security thang was gay, real gay, but I still broke all the rules and had an awesome time. Cept it wasn't as good as Lupo's because there were like 3000 people there and it was absolutely ridiculous. But I got my cam snuck in, thanks to leeno12088, thanks babe, and got a lot of pictures of sean, because he is fucking hot, and he was right next to me, and he was moving around the most as well. So for anyone who was there...I was of to the right near the speakers kind of, where Sean was. I started off pretty far back, but managed to get to the front, only behind one other girl. The security was actually alright to us when it came to giving us water, because it was like 120 degrees in there and I for real, thought I was going to pass out. It was so disgusting everyone's sweat all over you and shit, but yeah, you get used to it. So anyways, people's were all getting out and shit cuz they were like passing out, but I had to stay through all of Yellowcard. I decided to get out after that but had like no idea where any of my friends were lol. I knew Christina had gotten out cuz she told me but had no clue where Katie and Maggie were. Two nice girls helped put me up so I could get out and I was real fortunate that Katie and Maggie were like right at the exit, it was perfect. The bitch put a blue mark on my hand but I licked it off lol. Then we tried to get water, but no they closed the frieken thing like RIGHT when we got up there so we had to survive on a bubbler for a little while. Then we just sat in the bleachers for SoCo, cuz we knew that if we went back we would never be able to get as close or be able to see. So we're all sitting there and me and Christina are like shit, wanna go crowd surf? So we gave Kate and Maggie our phones and shirts and shit and went back in lol. I asked some random kid to put us up and he seemed all pissed about it, as if like 9347543 prior to me had already asked him. He was hott though, so I was like heyyy whatever?! ;) so then he dropped me cuz he was the only one trying to lift me lol but some other nice girls picked me up and holy shit, I've never crowd surfed before, but it was SO fun. Like I don't know how to describe it, it's just, fun lol like exciting wild fun. And then the ugly security guy yanked me out and I got another blue streak and just licked that one off too lol. Then we went back and watched the stuff while Katie and Maggie went. It was just awesome. Something Corporate was good from what I was actually able to see, but they god damn police shut all their shit off and threatened to arrest Andrew so we all had to sing "If You See Jordan" because the mics weren't on anymore. They did Konstantine, I was kind of surprised, but it was really good, and touching. So after the show we headed out real fast. Katie's dad was there, I wanted to meet the bands, but I guess that won't happen until I'm old enough to drive myself to these damn shows. So that was my third show ever, well second, because John Mayer doesn't count so much as a show lol. It was great, I want to go see them again at URI with Mark :) it's oh so much funner with a chico there to hold you :) *dreams to herself*

So anyways, I'm writing this so late because I didn't get home Sunday till a bit after three, cuz I slept at Katie's and then had soccer in the morning. As soon as I got home, I had like 20 minutes to shower (from the night before grosss) and pack for New York. I went to NYC for a few days, but we stayed in Queens the first two nights. Just basically shopped around and shit. Monday I got to go on Carson Daly's show--Last Call. It was wicked cool, I had never been on a talk show set before. JKwon performed. "Now urrrbody in the club gettin TIPSAY"...I almost shot myself. Well I was kind of excited, cuz it was free, and I was like shit I'm seeing a famous person for freeeee, but it was just bad. Only certain people got to go down on the floor for the performance. I was like god damn yo, white girl can break it down too. :) But I still had fun dancing in my chair hehe. If it was a real band though, that would have been fricken awesome, I mean, it was FREE!

So we just shopped and blahhhh, we were kind of supposed to come home yesterday so I'd be able to go to the track meet today, but my rents got a decent deal on a hotel actually in the city so we couldn't pass up that offer. Those damn people drive SO crazy. If we drove like that around here, people would be cursing, fingers flying EVERYTHING. Down there it's like, cross at your own risk. If you get hit, well then, that just sucks for you. LoL the taxi drivers are the worst...but we won't go there...seeing every single one looks like mother fuckin bin laden...

We got home today around 4, it actually only took like 3 hours to get home. Both Katie and Colleen told me that we lost the meet, but it was by a lot, so my like 1 point, if any, in the hurdles, wouldn't have helped so much. It would have been a waste to rush home. I gotta get working on my hurdles though damnnn...

Tonight I went to the mall, yeah go figure. I've been shopping all night and the first thing I do when I come home is go to the mall. But my bro was already going with some people so I figured why not? Plus, it's better than staying home. I met Mark there :) and Braudis. We just chilled basically, walked around, did NOTHING. Then I went out to eat with my bro and his friends, cuz I'm wicked cool like that, but I had to cuz the boys had to go home and my dad wanted me to stay with my bro anyways, cuz he doesn't really trust him ;) and then this 16 yr old bitch keeps calling Nick D. and telling him she wants to have sex with him. So I call this girl back and start bitching her out. I was like stop being a stupid slut trying to get with 14 yr old boys. It was so funny she's like I'll come kick your ass right now. I was like haha go ahead I would love for you to come I'm in Attleboro, Mass. Come get me. It was funny. At the time. I love stupid people. And that is my idea of fun :-D

Then I came home, talked to Mark and decided to come on here, and write. And holy shit have I wrote a lot. I think I'm beginning to develop Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. My hands hurt, so I'm gonna go to bed. Amen to all of you who actually read all this. And if you do, please comment and let me know, because you will be my new best friend :-*

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SHIT! [17 Apr 2004|02:03pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Track this morning. It actually wasn't so bad, I think I'm already becoming a better hurdler :)

Leaving for Yellowcard in approximately...umms... 2 hours :)
I am excited beyond belief, ya'll have no idea. I don't know what to bring, I'm such a little girl. I got my phone, money, disposable cam lol...I know some of you have met YC. Did you get autographs? Should I bring a marker or something...oh boy.
I'm all ready with still two hours to wait before I even leave, and 5 hours before I can even get in the doors.

This is amazery! Wish me fun, everyone! :) (<---hehe that rhymed)

I'll tell you all about it umm, shit, maybe tomorrow. I'm sleeping at Katie's, then I have soccer at one, then I'm leaving for NYC. I might get a chance in betweem sometime for an update. Well I'm out. It's 2:00 and all I've eaten today thus far is a bananer lol...loveeeeeeeeee

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[16 Apr 2004|10:06pm]
Let me just add, that Ryan Key is fucking gorgeous. Along with Sean Mackin, who I would do in a heartbeat.

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[16 Apr 2004|09:55pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

some pics i took today behind the cut...don't ask me why i took these either...it was rather random
nothing better to do, seeing i couldn't see mark :'(

I'm gonna overcome this, paper hearts can't win this time And all along I should have known this wasn't your dream, it was mine I know you wanted me to give up this life to be Everything I was back when you had the hands my heart was in Today I couldn't stay awake Feels like I'm drowning in this firewater lake I won't be sleeping much tonight It's not the same without you lying by my sideCollapse )

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yc [16 Apr 2004|11:42am]
like holy fuckin shit like omg


yellowcard is tomorrow guys...definitely, like JUST realized that. i'm not ready at all but shittt YC ahhhh
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[15 Apr 2004|09:25pm]
Soccer practice tonight. Wasn't fun. Never is. Cept those are the only girls who can make me laugh, non-stop. So I guess in a way it was kind of fun. Ate Wendy's. Got fat. In addition to the 3 Krispy Kreme donuts I had today. Came home to bad news. His parents don't think us being together is such a good idea. What the fuck. He doesn't get a license till November, and me till next February. This fucking sucks. Why can't shit ever work out?

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[13 Apr 2004|09:36pm]
Wow, it's been a great day gone bad...I don't know how much longer I can take this for... :'(
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WoW [09 Apr 2004|11:40pm]
Most amazing night...ever
Like, I can't even describe it in words. :-D
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[09 Apr 2004|09:52am]
[ mood | sick ]

Wanna know what I hate, how like, I'm not cool because I don't drink and smoke a lot. I've never smoked before and the most I ever drank was like a few sips of bacardi, okay so that makes me so damn straight edge. Big fucking deal, the difference is, I can have just as good of a time sober :) And I know leeno12088 will agree with me. But for real, that's so stupid. I'd prefer to go out and have a good time on my own, and not that to piss my money (that I don't have) away on weed. Word

So this week sucked, granted I did well on my two quizzes and decent in the track meet. But umm, yeah. Things might have been different if Katie hadn't told me what Jon had done behind my back. Oh well, we are broken up now, but it kind of needed to be done anyways. I feel so much better now. And now I have the single life to look forward too, and a cutie in mind ;)

Later babes,

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[06 Apr 2004|06:03pm]
Colleen is one of my heroes, and best friends. Seeing my boyfriend is an idiotic and incoherent asshole, Colleen still chooses to be there for me, along with Katie lol. She still sits and listens through all my stories, and my endless rambling, of NOTHING. Haha I love you, and when I say I get excited, she gets excited with me lol, and she does hurdles with me, and continues to listen to me talk and complain. LoL I have nothing else to say, except perhaps love for Colleen. Spread allllll the love you have for Colleen. LoL, wow, I put this post makes me sound like I'm trippin off acid. Oh well, I got nothing else to say. Going to ice and study, because I'm a nerd, right Mark? ;)

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[03 Apr 2004|09:44pm]
will be performing
on T R L
Wednesday, April 7th
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Play tonight [02 Apr 2004|11:08pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

"We held eachother as the night came to an end
But all I could think about was your boyfriend
If he only knew the things that you've done and said
And that you were lying here with me in this bed
Because I live so far away
Is why you chose him that day

Oh my gosh, I can't believe it, like wow, Mest was created for me, or something.

The play was tonight, it was real good :) Once Upon a Mattress. The day they bust out "Annie", yes I will be trying out for lead role :)


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6 weaknesses, or turnons, or whatever you wanna call it :) [31 Mar 2004|09:36am]
[ mood | So in Love ]

1. Guys that are in a band, and therefore, consequently, play an instrument. :)
2. Guys that talk in French...(Okay I don't know why, but that's just hott lol)
3. Guys who are jacked, and can just hold you so you feel safe in their arms.
4. Guys who whisper in you're ear, "you're so beautiful"
5. Blue eyes
6. Long hair (well not l o n g, but you know what I mean :)
7. [edit] Most importantly, guys that are good with kids. How could I forget that one?

Oh shit, I just described *him*
More will be added to this list I'm sure.
If you got any thing, comment please :)

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